Gutted - I am absolutely gutted! It was a case of now or never for the All Blacks... and it was not meant to be! I won't go into the 'why?' and 'who's fault?' discussion - no doubt the press do that! I am just getting ready to return my - previously - precious possessions (AB jersey, NZ passport and flags) to New Zealand. I won't need those things anymore! Do I send them to the New Zealand Rugby Union or Helen Clarke?